I am honored to welcome April Boyer to the Standing Against Satan series. Her story is a powerful testimony of God’s working even in the painful and unsure times. And she boldly proclaims hope, even when Satan tries to distract us from the wondrous grace and love of our Savior.
“I throw myself down in my chamber, and I call in, and invite God, and his Angels thither, and when they are there, I neglect God and his angels for the noise of a fly, for the rattling of a coach, for the whining of a door; I talk on in the same posture of praying, eyes lifted up, knees bowed down, as though I prayed to God; and if God or his angels should ask me when I thought last of God in that prayer, I cannot tell. Sometimes I find that I had forgot what I was about, but when I began to forget it I cannot tell. A memory of yesterday’s pleasures, a fear of tomorrow’s dangers, a straw under my knee, a noise in mine ear, a light in mine eye, an anything, a nothing, a fancy, a chimera in my brain troubles me in my prayer.” -John Donne
Do you see yourself in this scenario?
Certainly, we have all been distracted by the world’s noise, and by the call to be ‘doing’.Certainly, we have all been distracted by the world’s noise, and by the call to be ‘doing’.… Click To TweetWhen I was diagnosed with cancer in 2012, after an already trying year of losses, and serious illnesses for both my husband and me, the knees of my faith shook.
The announcement of cancer was scary enough. The idea that my husband also required surgery and strengthening was almost too much to think about. Between the both of us, we had 7 surgeries (I had a couple of procedures as well) and we lost 2 parents and another family member.
Satan was doing his best to distract me from refreshing in the presence of my God.
Hearing cancer, and then all the other news made me yell out to God: “Why?”.
Then I examined myself and imagined all the reasons God did not love me. So I cried “Why not me?”.
But most of all, after learning about the year we would experience, I cried more: “Why now”?
Satan was hard at work washing away the foundation built on my faith in God.
He whispered to me that God did not care.
He devised ways to make me think that my God had forgotten me.
He weakened my trust by invading my imagination with anger and bitterness.
My husband did not stand on strong faith. It was sporadic. It was unsure. I blamed myself. Here was another device Satan used against me.
My prayer, my quiet time with God, was now interrupted by the crunching sound of doubt.Has your quiet time with God ever been interrupted by the crunching sound of doubt?… Click To TweetThe noise of anger roaring in my head erased any peace I had when approaching God.
I knew that my God is full of mercy, grace and compassion, and I knew he understood my anger.
He was ready to forgive it, and lift me out of it. But it took more time.
Satan scrabbled around the empty, grieving recesses of my mind, looking for any evidence of faith and joy. Sadly, I handed it over.
God brought me back to Himself in the quiet moments during chemo treatments. I rested, and waited. I had nowhere else to go- so I went back to my God.
I examined my heart, and asked myself how I had been blessed.
In spite of the loss, the pain and the discomfort, I was blessed.
Family members loved me and showered me with attention and compassion. My church family and friends were supportive and helped with driving and meals. I had time to heal and recover, and no pressing responsibilities to return to. A daily job would have slowed that recovering. Caring for youngsters or my mother would have taken more stamina than I had. Other responsibilities were now unimportant.
God put me in the best place I could be to endure this trial in the time He had ordained.
The experience of that trial brought my husband back to church. It brought my son closer to me. It put my mother’s care in the hands of my sister; at the right time, and in the right place.
My Lord put me in a situation where rest and quiet would fill many days.
Soon I was hearing the joyous sounds of God’s creation and the laughter of children instead of the angry drum-beats that Satan pushed on me.
I could hear God’s sweet words whispering to me in the breeze of that 2013 summer. I could hear His promises to me that never fail, that never change.
He gave me the opportunity to sit quietly and enjoy His wondrous creation. I heard Him through the bird song, and scampering critters. I could talk to God and He talked to me.
Then I started the process of recovery. After treatments were done, I wanted to fly. I wanted to throw myself in serving and doing. I felt so well for about 5 months, I put all the cancer and ensuing chemo behind me.
Satan again tried to convince me I could do whatever I wanted to. I was invincible. Satan invaded into my prayer time, and briefly – I lost that precious time with God.
Once again, I entered that sweet rest and apart-ness. Jeff had given me a screen house where I sat quietly and heard God’s whispers of strength and encouragement.
I was reminded of my Lord’s promises to abide, to give me rest, to strengthen me, to be faithful in all things. His arms wrapped around me, and together, we conquered the negative jabs and arrows that Satan slung at me.
I can stand against Satan because Christ anchors me.
His words of encouragement and hope are more powerful than Satan’s attempts to distract me.
Satan has no chance against the truth I know from God’s own word- His words of truth and love.Satan has no chance against the truth I know from God’s own word! #StandAgainstSatan Click To Tweet“For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD.” -Psalm 117:2
“But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.” 2 Thess. 3:3
“Wife, mom, grandmother, I am a daughter of the King, accepting His grace at age 20. I care about small ministries that reach into tiny corners of the local world and shine a light. I hear the cries of women who are struggling to survive cancer, and for those who choose not to hope. I pray that the ministry of my book “In His Shadow” can bring that hope. I am also passionate about serving God through the ministry of encouragement cards to nursing home shut-ins. My heart is wrenched by the voices of women held in captivity in many lands including our own.”
Proverbs 3:5,6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.”
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